And now I wonder..
How's the world gonna be like without my existence?
Sometimes, I really wish I've never existed. Then, I wouldn't have to go through so many ups and downs in life. At times in life, the naked truth hurts the most. So, is ignorance really a bliss? Or is it better to know everything you can?

Back to the topic on love. What exactly is it? How easy is it to fall in love with someone, even if it's merely one you've met on the streets. It's still down to fate and destiny that two people in this big world have met and got together. So, it's probably not that easy to fall in love with someone after all. And once you do, you just can't make yourself fall out of it as easy anymore. It's so difficult to walk away, because it hurts so much like thousand of needles piercing through your every part of the body. And when you get numb, you can't go back to the past anymore. And I was right that honeymoons always end, there's no such thing as a forever honeymoon. I should've just trusted myself more than anyone else..

My migrane is killing me.
Plus my gastric.
They just hit me every single day now, I think I really just wanna die like immediately. I'm just numb on pills, and now I really wanna sleep forever.

Like forever and ever without having to wake up to reality.