I've been thinking pretty alot lately, mostly on what I really want in life.
And I've been imagining seeing myself, say 4 years down the road as a career-minded woman. But the image just snaps away within seconds, because I honestly hate the idea of having the work already. Seeing all the stressful people around me everyday, I wonder if I can just survive on bread everyday and skip the work? Tsk tsk.

I think i'm born a housewife. Belonging to those women behind successful men? I'm contented with just staying home to do what a typical housewife does. Cleaning up the house, looking after the kids and cooking dinner every other night, waiting for my husband to come home from work. Simplicity. But then again, I highly doubt I will be satisfied with just a simple life, given my 21 years of pampered life. It's a tad too tough to adapt to another simpler life, isn't it?

O, and I have this crazy dream lately. I want to build a house in future! A beautiful house, with just one big storey and my rooftop will definitely have be the place for relaxation. Rooftop pool, suntanning, jacuzzi (a must!), barbequeing, etc. Basically, a place you step into with zero worries. And not to forget, I must have my walk-in pink wardrobe (which will be divided into slightly less than half for my brown cow, the messy side which I will never enter!) And I want a big bedroom with a big water bed that can freeze and harden for various purposes. A comfortable room for jingle darling. And so on......

Yes, I'm really going to dream now.

And now I wonder..
How's the world gonna be like without my existence?
Sometimes, I really wish I've never existed. Then, I wouldn't have to go through so many ups and downs in life. At times in life, the naked truth hurts the most. So, is ignorance really a bliss? Or is it better to know everything you can?

Back to the topic on love. What exactly is it? How easy is it to fall in love with someone, even if it's merely one you've met on the streets. It's still down to fate and destiny that two people in this big world have met and got together. So, it's probably not that easy to fall in love with someone after all. And once you do, you just can't make yourself fall out of it as easy anymore. It's so difficult to walk away, because it hurts so much like thousand of needles piercing through your every part of the body. And when you get numb, you can't go back to the past anymore. And I was right that honeymoons always end, there's no such thing as a forever honeymoon. I should've just trusted myself more than anyone else..

My migrane is killing me.
Plus my gastric.
They just hit me every single day now, I think I really just wanna die like immediately. I'm just numb on pills, and now I really wanna sleep forever.

Like forever and ever without having to wake up to reality.

Today I finally realise after all what love really is.
Is it all about romance? No. Committment? No. Compromising? Not really. I think it's all down to being able to love someone for who he or she is, withstanding all obstacles that may come along.

Think about it, what if your other half just wants to turn himself or herself into someone you may hate the most? And if you are able to tolerate his or her most unbearable side, it's all gonna be out of your pure love for him or her. Nothing else but love, something so magical and unbelievable but it happens, only when it's true love I must emphasize.

And when it happens, it just happens. If it doesn't, no point pushing it to even happen. It's a give and take situation most of the time. You can't exactly have two people giving or taking at the same time, because collision is bound to happen. Same theory applies, when two stones hit one another, it creates a spark. I'll say a love relationship is a relationship between stone and maybe water? Sometimes when the stone is hot, there's always water to cool it down. And when at times the stone becomes dry, the water is there to hydrate it. The bond is so simple, yet special.

Woohoo, what a nice, great win! Remember the court case? YES, it was today and I won, WON okay. The motherfuckingccbljface got a good sucker punch right in his face. The judge didn't even bother hearing to his side of the story half the time. To think he still dare say so loudly that I was lying and twisting stories when it's ALL written in black and white beforehand. Daddy said the fuckergoh even had a piece of paper right in front of him and he was reading it like a script. Tsk tsk, what a loser. And fuckergoh even claimed that I told them to throw the dead body away because it was stinking like hell. My gosh. Yeah, whatever. I've WON, WON WON WON back the face we deserved. The money didn't really matter, though we got half of the amount back in the end. It's the pride and experience I've gotten in return. Bella, mommy did you proud after all yeah? Now, you can go in peace but forever remembered, you shall be.

Arghhhhhh, still got jetstar's case to win about. Shall I take them up to court too someday? Oh did I mention I wasn'tdressed appropriately for court and the security had to warn me? Eh, what! People first time go court what, actually I couldn't be bothered. ;)

Oh yeah, on a lighter note for food lovers.
Two of my recent craze, highly recommended!

Xin Yuan Ji (Tan Quee Lan St)
31 Tan Queen Lan St
#01-01

Earthen Jar Treasure Herbal Soup 瓮中宝滋补煨汤
22 Sin Ming Road
#01-244 77 Eating House