Court hearing date is on coming 11 may, and I'm gonna have to do it on my own this time because I'm not allowed to bring anyone in with me. As much as I want daddy to be representing me instead, I'm just gonna fight for my baby bella, not for anyone else but her. So no matter how emotional I know I might get, I'm just gonna hold on for her. Be brave, just like how she used to struggle to live on.

I had dinner at marche yesterday, it's been such a long time! Miss the rosti over there. I only knew yesterday that they changed the punch card to the normal card, goes to show how long I haven't been there! Caught friday the 13th, it ended up as a comedy instead of horror show. Wanna know? Ask isaac. Tsk tsk. He was so busy giggling away throughout the show man!

I have another assignment on hand again. Yes, one only right? YES. Wait till you see what it's about. I don't even know how to begin doing it. GOSH. Darling jingle's been such a precious! I just realise she puked on my bed and I don't even know when it happened. Thank god her puke didn't enter my territory (she has a small share of territory of my bed)! If not, I'll kiiiiiillllllllllllllllll her. I swear.

Arhhhh how sweet! I got a letter from my beloved Jetstar addressed to me, yes ME. Like FINALLY! I was damn excited while tearing open the letter so very gently, oh no like vigorously I meant, sorry still ohsosurprised over the fact that I have gotten Jetstar's reply! JETSTAR man don't play play! A little too unbelievable indeed.

Attn: Ms Josephine Tan
Customer Service Ececutive (with the most perfect english)

To my beloved Jetstar,

I refer to your nice, sweet little letter dated 17 April 2009 (which I only received today, 22nd April) and I can't express how impressed I am because your mailing process is sodamnfuckingfast!

'We refer to your letter received on the 18th March 2009...' What's the date today? Is it 19th or 20th March? Oh no, it's already 22nd April! Not even one week or two weeks from the date, but one whole bloody month! Took them one whole month, taking their own sweet time to reply me.

'We sincerely apologised for the delay in refund...' No, it's not my typo error. The D was there printed in black and white. Please refer back to the original evidence as above. Gosh, is Jetstar really a local airline? PLEASE, no. It's doing our country no good with all these grammar errors in just a single fine piece of letter!

'While our Jetsaver tickets are non-refundable (oh, but how come your staff called on your company's account to offer me the refund on the flight date itself?), our management has decided to make an exception as a gesture of goodwill (awwww, how very sweet of you! mwahs!) and refund all passenger affected....' I feel so very honoured to be the exception! Where's the aSS? Grammar!

'This letter will served as the final status on the refund' Did you just forget the fullstop or are my eyes playing tricks on me? And another grammar mistake, use microsoft words 2007 for god's sake! Come on man, you don't even take any responsibility or willingness in writing this letter! Ah, and is this your way of telling me to stop calling your customer service hotline? You tell me that this is the final status on the refund? MY refund?

'...... in end April or early May statement.' Yeah, right. So what did writing in to the Jetstar Customer Relations department helped in my refund case? I thought your staff claimed it WILL help make it faster. In the end, I still have to wait 6 whole months all in all. Not to forget I've already waited a total of FIVE months for my refund that has yet to be in.

'Meanwhile we appreciate the time... and thank you for the continuous support.' Meanwhile I appreciate the time you have made me wait exactly one whole month for your precious reply! And I thank you for never ever have me patronizing your service again. Continuous, with a big FULL STOP, support!

Eh buddy, we're from the same country leh, all singapo-lang nehs urr languag oso same same as me ma, bloken here and dere, fullstop oso don wan put. Give me face leh and return me my money lar!

Lastly, screw you.

Yours belovedly,
Gracie
xoxo up your arse.

Really fallen sick yesterday night and I've been sleeping the whole of today. And I'm still feeling so lethargic! Must be the dloings of the medicine, I can't even think or type properly the whole day. I hate getting sick, especially at such a stressless timing because I've just submitted my assignment and have all the way until thursday to relax! You know, being sick now just upsets me so much. I was hoping the whole day someone was there for me, to bring me food and make sure I take my medicine before tugging me to bed. But I guess nobody loves me enough to do that. This is when one realy wishes she has a boyfriend at that point of time.

On a serious note, I have to hurry to court soon to submit my claim form. I don't wanna drag anymore, bella's been gone for quite a while and I really hope to settle this case real soon. I just hope everything goes well my way. I wonder how does a court look like? Tsk tsk. But I definitely never want to be there for no reason!

I'm a sleeping beauty,
waiting for my prince to kiss me awake.

Arhhhhhchewwwww! I think I'm getting a flu. I can't stop with the sneezings. Arghhhh!

I've finally done a submission of two more assignments and I won't go thinking about them anymore. Even though I might have done some parts wrongly, argh. Shoo shoo, I won't I WON'T think about them anymore! I have my last assignment for this school term, commencing coming thursday so I'mma give myself a little short break first. Before I get on the last final, toughest of all assignment. Bleah.

I've been on a pretty good track lately, with school, with family, with life as well. I don't know if I'm contented this way. Maybe, just maybe I need something moreto it. Something called happiness. Yeah, I really want to be happy like everyone else. I want to smile genuinely and feel like the happiest girl on earth..

Jingle, stop snoring!

I'm stuck home today, not only to rest my eyes, but to rush all my assignments! And I'm so glad I did, because I'm almost done with them. Except I hated the feeling of rotting too long at home and when you have nothing to do, you just keep going downstairs and upstairs again like for many many times. Thank God, I have jingle baby to play with. I think I'm spending too little time with her lately. It's like ever since bella's gone, I never really dare look at jingle because I get reminded about bella. And damn! I can't capture a nice shot of my lovely nails as promised and I so so so want to show it off hereeeeeee!

I want my own new ride too,
boo hoo.

I'm loving my new set of toe nails! But I can't seem to capture a nice shot of them, will try again tomorrow. And it's high time I cut down on my spending, I'm over spending! But the cocoa butter lotion is always a necessity, so yeah it was a must-have. Because I'm loving how I smell now! Oh yeah, I watched handsome suit today, stupid storyline but pretty touching and damn funny show. I'm giving it 3 and half popcorns ;) I want a beautiful suit, can I?

I'm having killer headaches again, and I swear it makes me wanna bang my head against the wall. Eating my pills make me feel so sick and unhealthy, I'm seriously sick of those blue and white pills. Assignments after assignments, troubles after troubles. When will these ever end? Why can't people all have peaceful lives, why can't everybody be smiling happily everyday? Life would've been so damn wonderful....

I wanna be someone's barbie girl.
I want love and care too.

And finally, my parents had time to go down to the pet farm today.
Those fuckers just need to be taught a lesson. I hate it that the uncle kept interrupting every single sentence my daddy said. I hate it that we've to still show them a little respect just because they are elders. I hate it that we know exactly whose fault it is but the person jsut won't own up. I hate it that they kept putting the blame on me for the death of my OWN dog. I hate it that I want to cry out loud but I just can't. And I really hate it that my baby bella is gone forever.

Can you believe it?!
The fucker said I don't even dote on my dog, just because I don't wanna see her dead body! What fucking crude logic is this.
You fucking idiots, I make sure everyone knows about you and make sure your business go down the drain.

DO NOT VISIT!
William Goh Pet Farm
91 Seletar West Farm Way 1
Singapore 790000
Tel: 6482 2709

And baby bella,
I do dote on you.
And I do love you.

Omg, jingle baby just woke up suddenly and sneezed a combo of four times! With one of her eyes closed that kinda sneeze, major sneeze yes and she looked damn funny. And then, she's back to her dreamland. So cute can!

Oh, I wanna sleep tight too.

Fast & furious 4 is totally wooohoooo! It takes your breath away. Nice show, nice cars, not so nice dudes though. Tsk tsk. Awaiting for the fifth to come out!

My school work load is really killing me, I don't even understand how to do my current assignment. I have two assignments due next thursday, really hope I can cope. I kinda regret taking up a degree, it isn't as easy as it may seem but I won't wanna give up now. I'm only hoping for the better!

Sometimes, I still think about you. I wonder if you're doing well and living better now. You were such a precious little one to me, like my very own baby girl. And I still miss you a whole lot. How I wish I could see your grow up into a beautiful one. With much love, and hugs.

Thank god it's monday! Not because sunday is a bad day but because yesterday night was like the emo-iest night ever for me. Pardon the word used, I can't seem to find a better word to describe how emo I actually felt. It seems like the whole world went against me, and I've lost all my loved ones within a day. Did I mention, I really miss bella a lot? I so wanna dream of her.

Everyone and anyone out there, please send your prayers for my baby bella. Hope that she'll hold on tight and survive through the toughest time she's facing now. All I ask for now, is her ultimate survival..

I'll exchange 10 years of my own life, for her little fragile life right now.

I can't imagine how I'll cope if I were to go visit her, so tonight I told myself I need to stay home and I can't see her suffering. Though I very much want to be there to accompany her, I know it's for the best of everybody. All my friends and family are as worried as I am now, and we all know baby bella will be a strong girl. We will all pray for her!

It probably hurts me the most, because she's like my very own child. I've waiting for her for the longest time, like every other moms will do during their nine months of pregnancy. Even though I wasn't the one giving birth to her, but throughout the whole process of welcoming baby bella to this world, I was there to witness and feel it. She's my very own baby, and if anyone's heart is aching for her now, mine will be hurting the most. Feels like my heart just got stabbed hard when the news came in this morning. I didn't know what else to feel, but numb with fear of losing her. I had to hold back my emotions to still go for classes and even hold back my strong urge to be there for her, because I know I won't be able to be strong when I see my little girl..

Oh God, I only ask for one thing.
And it's for baby bella to be safe and sound.

Home sweet home today, it does feel good at times to jsut stay home alone and clear some thoughts running inside your mind. I guess it is gonna make me feel better at the end of the day, it beats running away from the problems you have. Instead, you make it a point to face it and think through it. Though at times it may be tough, fighting with your own heart and mind, but it's always for the better. Never drag troubles you have, solve it as soon as you can. In that way, I feel life is gonna be so much better for yourself. I just wanna live each day happily, and to the fullest. I don't wanna live my life for anyone else, but myself.

Oh yes, I'm spreeing again! I've so many clothes and bag and accessories that is on pending arrival. I can't wait to receive my goods! I'm like addicted to online shopping again! And that's because clothes selling in singa is getting so so sooooooooooooooo expensive nowadays. How I wish my bangkok trip can come really soon, hope the riots go away like forever and ever!

And I probably won't go back to my favourite hotel again,
and it's all because of you.

It's april's fool and I do feel like a fool.