I hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, hateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee jetfuckingstar idiots morons! And curse the stupid ang moh bitch, I swear I'll get back at you real soon. You're lucky I didn't get your name but I can surely recognise your bitchy turn-off voice! Ridiculous piece of shit.

I'm badly baked this time, I've been red for like three days already and it still hurts a lot. I can't even sleep properly! I promise I won't be so stubborn and just stay in the sun for one hour, and period. Never be too greedy!

And I'm still damn moody over that stupid airline, throw singapore's face totally!
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Oh, let's hit the beach again baby!
Heart, heart, heart the sun at sentosa! But I'm so badly burnt now, feels like I just got out of the oven. Freshly baked! And as usual, my arms are badly bruised with blood clots from playing volley. It hurts like mad, but pain is good isn't it?

I caught The Unborn yesterday. And Confessions of a Shopaholic today, oh yes movie marathon yes. It's been like four days of movie? The Unborn wasn't too nice, western horrors are never scary. And when one happens to be scary, it's because they did a translated version of some thai or whatever language horror flick. Ah, Confessions of a Shopaholic was much much better, though the story didn't quite tally with the storybook. But all in all, it was hilarious! Rebecca bloomwood is sure one crazy shopaholic.

Grrrr. I'm still burning now, I hope I don't peel too badly this time. I don't want my efforts to go to waste! And I'm feeling so lethargic tonight, oh yeah finally I can sleeeeeeepppp!

Paul Blart is one big fat ass mall cop man! He's real funny, exactly like a pu-dao-weng. But all in all, the movie had a stupid storyline, it's just pure comedy shit. Three stars worth maybe? Next up will be Confessions of a Shopaholic, Fast & Furious 4 and Gran Torino! Am seeing pretty good reviews for these shows so far.

I think I really hate pasta mania tonight, I don't know why but I always hate the after taste that stays in my mouth for a long while, even brushing my teeth didn't help get rid of it. Not that I don't love the food there, but the strong taste is really killing me. Grrrrr, okay just tonight alright. I hate it!

Yeah, and I've submitted my first assignment of my uni life today! I feel oh so great! I finally got over it. And now I've my second assignment on hand already -.-

Somebody kill me please.

Watched thai horror flick earlier on, and I swear this is the first ever horror movie to make me scream, but just once okay, just once! I got shocked just ONCE! Tsk tsk. Yeah, come to think of it I'm kinda sadist, I laugh when I watch a horror movie, it's probably my way of not freaking out throughout the show.

I'm back home all relaxed on my bed now, my assignment is due tomorrow but I finished it yesterday night! So, I'm stressed free for the time being until the next task comes up, like tomorrow? Oh gosh, yet just another battle with time.

Jingle darling's sleeping downstairs tonight because she's having her period, heavy flow. I don't want her to dirty her/my own bed! I've got new bedsheets and it's all in sexy red! But I'm missing her company already. And bella baby too, I so wanna go see her soon.

I have a secret, y'all.

I'm reading confessions of a shopaholic, thanks to eileen darling for lending me the book. I'm loving it! And I swear becky bloomwood is one hardcore shopper! Tsk tsk, at least it makes me feel better because I'm not half as bad as she is. Shopping time~ I miss bangkok a lot! Oh, and did I mention the movie's releasing like tomorrow? I can't wait to catch it!

I might just go hongkong this 21st birthday, don't really like the idea of spending this birthday in singas. Unless.... There's something just specially planned for princess gracie. Then, I might just stay put here for my celebration. I don't want another boring birthday this year, no way. Remember the key mommy! Do people substitute the key giving with something else? Like maybe a stack of cash, or a diamond ring? Or a brand new sports car? Say SLK? Woohoo. I promise i'll be a damn good girl.

You know..
Memento is everlasting.

Woohoo! Made a mini sales profit today at the bazaar and as expected, given my superrrrrrr lazy character, I closed stall earlier than anyone else. Tiring okay! Now i'm pondering on how to get rid of the rest of my stock. Hur hur. Home sweet home, I miss my bed so very much today because I'm feeling so drained out, from the weather especially. Makes every part of me so sticky, I can just use post-it on my skin without the stickers!

I sooooooo wanna go fly a kite, love the feeling of seeing the kite flying so carefree!
Really depicts what I want my life to be, free and easy with no worries.

Yeah absolutely right now.

Feels like my heart got ripped right out of my body earlier on,
when I heard what you've got to say.
I've tried my very best to salvage things,
to hear you saying your heart died on me so fast.
Are you happy now?
Wait, were you even upset over us?

I want waffles with you again,
missing the times and smiles and love.

Waiting is Rewarding, I've waited but where's my reward?
Waffle Say Smile Always, how to when you are my smile?

And you took it all away from me.

With misses, especially tonight.
How do I sleep without crying every night?

Smell of your skin lingers on me now.

Lesson 1 When a guy says, I can't really sleep, keep wanting to switch on my laptop to look at your pictures. Don't do anything, don't even take initiative to send him your photo! Just wait for him to really go switch it ON first.

Lesson 2 'She's (referring to you) such a nice girl, i'm loving her!' Love is a no-no before you guys get together, don't get tricked and mix it up with like. If the guy uses love even before you're his, he's outta play with your heart.

Lesson 3 When a guy says, don't ever leave me ok, i love you a lot. He's probably be the one leaving you first, it's all just words girls.

Lesson 4 When a guy loves your dog a lot, he's only putting up an act to please you even more. Don't get conned!

Lesson 5 Guys will never every keep their promises. So just listen to half of what they say, the other half goes to his actions to prove he's a man of his words.

Lesson 6 When a guy says he's gonna fix your broken heart, it'd probably never happen in any case. Don't believe even a single bit of it!

More to come..

Nothing beats coming home to two loves of your life,
and nothing else wins seeing them so happy just to see you!
To HELL with all guys, nobody needs you.

Dogs are so much more affectionate and loyal when it comes to love. None other kind of love can beat the special bond you share with your dogs. You come home everyday, to see them wagging their tails to show that they're really delighted you're safe home! You know, you just wanna kiss them, at this time, love is so simple yet deep. They get contented so easily, you need not please them like men. They love you so much, genuine love unlike men's selfish love. They lick and kiss you and they get so happy over it, unlike men who only love to bed the girls.

I'm so glad I've jingle bella, and I don't need anyone else at this moment.
So thank you very much!

Got my new lappie, wooohooo!

I just can't give up and I'm on the verge of going berserk.

I need my dose of pills tonight.

Loving you is easy cause you're beautifool.

Edited.

Work at school is seriously tiring and stressful. I spent the whole afternoon yesterday and only ended up drafting out my first write up, just one journal out of three. It's tough, never knew universary could be so stressful. I'm falling sick, mentally and physically damaged now..

Why be so cruel and break someone's heart time after time after time?
At 4.14am this morning, I have really given up because my heart was shattered into a million pieces. You told me you're gonna fix it. How? Like this? Smash the broken pieces once more tonight? All i want, is a good night's rest, am I asking for too much?

Why must I keep falling back.
Into the arms that won't have a future?

I finally finished writing my love letter to jetfuckingstar! I'm so gonna mail my love out to them tomorrow first thing! I'd better get good news man. And not to forget, I'm dropping by the bank tomorrow, don't come rob me ok! I will be at Txxxxxxx at xxxx time wearing xxxxxxx colour.

Assignment day for me tomorrow, I really gotta force myself into it. Supposedly to do it today, but I'm having another migrane attack so I only managed to do on one article out of three. I'm hungry tonight, nobody's here to satisfy my hunger. Tsk tsk, sounds wrong uh? I'm really hungry la, my gosh!

FOOOODDDDDDDD.
Hotcakes with sausage again?
:)

I woke up to macdonald's hotcakes with sausage this morning! Ultimate loveeeeee.....
Been craving for it for the longest time, and just couldn't get up every morning to satisfy my craving. All thanks to baby k for today's breakfast. But the sausage was a little too hard, tsk tsk.

Another rainy afternoon, makes me so sleepy and I can't concentrate on my work. So I guess it's all down to tomorrow, gonna really push myself to get down to work, now pussssshhhhhhh. A big match tomorrow night, Man U vs Liverpool. I wanna watch, yeah never knew I was into soccer right, now you know! So much for boyfriends' influence. It was coke light back then and now, soccer! Ronaldo plays the biggest part actually, he's too much of a dream guy.

Alrights, mum mum firstttttt.

Caught My Bloody Valentine today, woohoo! 3D sure does make a horror movie so much more exciting, you see everything so damn near you, right in front of your eyes. Only downside, the spectacles are really heavy and clumsy to wear. Uncomfortable, that's it. And 3D movies definitely cheat money, because it costs more than usual ticket price and no discounts on ANY cards. I find the movie more of gruesome than horror, I was totally freaked out with the occasional shocks, but rather freaked out over the bloody and gruesome scenes. Now, who says valentine's day is supposed to be a happy day. Maybe I don't see the importance to celebrate valentine's days anymore, tsk tsk. Who's gonna be my bloody valentine next year?! >:)

School work's been pretty stressing, and I've only one module this term! Can't imagine what it's gonna be like next term or next, next term when I have more modules to clear. I think it could've have been because I've slacked for too long, and I jsut can't get use to the sudden stress that's coming my way. Date dues plus countless assignments to do. But at least, I feel so much more useful now and knowledgable tooooo!

Bella should be home by this weekend if everything goes well, now I don't know if I'll have time for her. Homecoming baby!!!

I'm feeling extremely stressed up and depressed today, is it the weather or the lack of sleep? Or just excuses, because I'm letting my tears all out right now. I'm feeling so tensed for no particular reason, I guess I'm emotionally tired and drained out. I won't want to play this game anymore if I'm given a choice. It's killing me inside out, and I don't know what to do about it.

I'm feeling fucked up too, I think the fever just hit me hard. I can actually feel myself so restless and having the least energy left already. And it's freezing cold, I feel like as though I'm in outer space, I'm floating aimlessly. I heard the lousiest updates ever tonight, I don't know if I should even be bothered about it, I guess not because I've enough in my head to ponder about. Nobody knows how I'm feeling now, not even you my prince charming. Where are you when I needed you most?

Tell me what it's like, to get you out of my mind?
Will I really be happier without you now?

I am soooooooooo pissed today, and sooooooooooooo irritated over the jetfuckingstar issue still. Okay, just screw you jetstar, screw you.

I went to catch a movie and felt a little better, plus I complained to anyone who was online the whole day and anyone who called me today. The movie was mere crap and nonsense. Only thing that attracted me, I wish I had the supernatural power to control other people's minds. Teeheehee! Wouldn't it be nice? Like, you can make the guy you like, like you too! And, you can make anyone buy you anything that you like! Oh oh, plus there's this supernatural power whereby you can change something into something else in disguise, how cool! Like, maybe you can consider changing an ugly guy into a handsome guy just for that one single date? Cool balls. I'm thinking of my dinner earlier on now, my favourite pepper lunch. And it makes me hungry again! Now, who's gonna buy me a meal? You know, there's just too many memories with pepper lunch..

Bella's doing great! And I'm so happy about it! She's a healthy, jumpy little girl now and I can't wait to bring her home. I feel so at ease, seeing that she's looking so pretty and strong and I was given assurance that she doesn't collapse as and when anymore. Bella bella bella! Oh, and jingle's going for a jab next week, poor girl. But I know my babygirl is the strongest one.

Off to dream about someone, somebody, some one.

I'm like in the louisest mood ever, ever now. You see, I've a flight in november last year return trip from bangkok. The flight was cancelled due to riots and they told me refund will be made in two months time. So I waited patiently and two months later, I called to check on the status, they said I'm supposed to wait three months actually, so I was nice and I waited for another month. And I called again, the staff said to wait till end of february to see if it's in. End of feb, I called in and can you believe it! It's already MARCH! They dragged still, saying give them another week, SHOULD be in by then. I called like twice and they kept asking for another week! And last week I called, staff said he will do the fast cheque for me, all I have to do is wait for another 7 days. Thank gawd! Seven days due. Today I called to speak to supervisor. And guess what? She said my refund was put in the wrong queue ALL ALONG! She was being nice and trying to help and she JUST corrected it for me TODAY!! AND I gotta wait ANOTHER THREE months for it! 6 whole bloody months for 382SGD! JETSTAR ARE YOU SO BLOODY BROKE OR WHAT?!! MYGOSH!

A homely monday, with the monday blues of course.
There's a couple of things I wish/need to do:
1. Go fly a kite, with jingle definitely.
2. Go cycling, it's been a while and both me and jingle misses it.
3. Watch movie my bloody valentine, I've planned it for this week.
4. Learn tennis.
5. Get a tann this weekend, pray for sunshine sunshine!
6. Collect my contact lenses, it arrived finally.
7. Go visit bella, i miss that sweetie pie!
8. Bring jingle to trim her nails, feet and ass hair, oops.
9. Send my car to replace the rear lamps electrical sockets.
10. Kill kenny from my heart, lol.

I need, I need, I need a goooooooooood holiday.
I think I'm so damn happy now because I'm losing weight like, everyday. Good or bad?

Tsk tsk.

Am I thinking right in the mind now?

Beats me.

Caught movie He's just not that into you earlier on, pretty nice show, informative actually. Yeah, it's only just a movie, so things they say in it may not even be half true. But who cares! I absorb what I want to absorb. So the movie says, if the guy isn't that into you, he won't ask you out or even call you. Now, this is totally true in reality. So so so, face it face the true world! Same goes to us girls actually, if we're totally not keen, we won't initiate to call or ask the guy out, or even agree to go out with him. And if the guy isn't that into you, he won't even bother about what you have to say all the time, exactly right because I've a real life example and he simply cannot be bothered to listen most of the time, i realise. It's in on one ear and out on the other ear, what a big ass jerk. No no, not too late to find out because at least I've won half the battle, maybe just more than half. Fighting with a loser, to begin with. And his image, aye I think it all kinda went wrong now. Tsk tsk. I think I'm too evil and not thinking properly tonight, must be the pills. So yeah, pardon the words. Did I mention, I totally find jennifer aniston hot? Like from a girl's point of view, she's hot.

It's 9th march today and no news means good news! I'm freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
Yeah, absolutely right. I ought to believe in myself more the next time. I actually came to my senses, I'm not exactly that into him. Next time, think think think.

Believeeeeee is the word, gracie.

Oh yessssss I'm finally feeling exhausted! That's exactly the feeling I need to have a good night's sleep! Yawns many many times.

Out with jojo darling earlier on to have KENNY rogers, yeah why kenny rogers of all restaurants? Ask ms jojo please. Tsk, only we both know the reason. Yeah, okay she was just craving for the macaroni cheese. And....
And I caught marley & me today, it's a pretty touching show. Teaches me to cherish jingle and bella even more than I am doing now, because feelings are not easy to be developed, even if it's with a dog. Your dog will always be there for you, even when everybody else leaves you. Even thought they can talk to you, but they are like the best listening ears ever. They love you the most, more than anyone else does, okay not as much as your parents duh. I love jingle and bella! Thousands and millions times of love for the both of them.

And yayness, because I've two classes next week like as if I'm really elated about it. And booness, because I've an assignment to do but I just can't access to the website, super 'lokcock' school.

Im'ma hit the sacks, and you yes you, cut me some slack please.
Goodnight all, love.

It's heavy downpour outside, my precious jingle is shivering non-stop. She's always so scared when it's raining thunders! And she thinks she's louder than the thunder because she will always growl and bark back fiercely. How cute! Okay, but the scratches she left on my arms and legs totally not cute at all. Honestly, such a tiny one can be so strong, what about myself? I'm freaking fearful of rain as well, especially those extremely bright lightnings and loud thunder roars, everytime it rains, I wished there's company. And I get exceptionally lonely when it rains, it's just the really mood dampening thing. Awwwww~

I wish there's company now. I wanna go out!

Cherish. Such a simple word, yet so many meanings to it.

Cherish the family.
For they will always be there for you when you need them. Even though I have parents who work so much I hardly see them, I know they're always a call away. They give me the best and always try to ensure that I've everything I need. Although there are times when I'm unhappy with them, at the end of the day, I learn to love them as my parents. And I've my brother who's busy with school and hardly home, though he doesn't show it at all, I know he cares for his younger sisters. My sister, who's the closest to me in the family, someone I treat as a little friend. She's always there for me during my hardest times, especially those break-ups. Without her in this family, I'd probably feel extra empty coming home every day. Cherish your family members, because they will always, always be there throughout your entire life. The saying goes, family always come first.

Cherish the friends.
True friends are hard to come by, friends come and go in your life. I have my fair share of friends who came and left me, those friends whom I treasure a lot and confide in. Friends are easy to make, but true friends are definitely hard to find. I'm glad I've some true friends by my side, those who really share happiness and sadness with me. Yes, I'm upset that some of my friends whom I really enjoy being with, left me because of some misunderstandings. But still, I cherish the fact that I've once known them in my life.

Cherish the lover.
It's always important to cherish the one you love the most, before he/she is gone. I've lost many chances to cherish my lover, in the end he just left me with regrets. Don't make a mistake, feel bad and do nothing about it. You make a mistake, you ought to make an effort to make it up to the person you love, prove your love to him/her. And by then, even after showing him/her your love, you know you've done your part for that special love. You won't feel upset, because you were once in love, true love with that someone. It's never too late to love someone, but don't be late in telling the person how much you love him or her. You'll never know when that person will be gone for life..

I wanna tell you, I love you I really do.

My cramps are killing me, it's day two already!
Earlier on when I woke up, the weather was sunny and the cramps were like gone. I thought it would've stayed that way for the rest of the day but I was wrong. It's as if my tummy can predict the weather today! Towards afternoon, my cramps started to come back as the sky started turning dark. And soon enough, heavy downpour and my painful cramps stayed all the way till now. Grrrrrrr!

My mood hasn't really changed for the better yet, I think it's time I go out more to recollect my feelings. I don't wanna look sulky all day and feel so depressed every night. I've lesson tomorrow, hopefully it'll make me feel better after. I can't really be bothered to dress up to go school because there's no reason for me to do that! Oops.

My teeth are hurting a little, I can't really bite on my food. Diet time again! It's great to see that I'm losing weight bit by bit, not too massive this time. I'll just keep that going for a while more. And I wrote a long letter yesterday to that special somebody, I just had to jot down everything I wanna say. I felt kinda better after that but my heart's still sore from the wound.

I hope it heals soon, and I hope you'll be the one to mend it.

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you

1. I think i'm losing too much blood.
2. I'm getting the giddy spells today.
3. I can barely move around the house.
4. The cold weather didn't help.
5. I keep getting cramps for the whole day.
6. I wish somebody was there to buy me hot soup/drink/whatever.
7. I wish he cared for me.
8. I stayed in bed almost the whole day.
9. I miss bella.
10. I miss baby k even more.
11. I want to feel happier.
12. I want to go on a holiday suddenly.
13. I need my dose of retail therapy.
14. I want to watch He's just not that into you.
15. My bloody valentine looks good too.
16. I'm feeling sleepy.
17. I'm going to sleep.
18. Too many things on my mind now.
19. I can't really sleep.
20. Yes, I'm going to sleep SOON okay.

21. I want to stop going crazy over you.

Okay, goodnight everyone.

I wanna know, how can I forget you?













I'm unsure of my own feelings now.

hate the weather.
hate the cramps.
hate the bloatedness.
hate the mood.
hate the heartache.
hate the guy,
who made my heart stop beating.

hate you, for making me upset in the end.

I'm so tired, I don't know what to do with my love life.





I'm leaving to a far far away land,
where there's no unhappiness, only joy and happiness!

Oh yesssssss.

Grow strong fast fast faster baby girl, I can't wait for your homecoming AGAIN. Hurts mommy's heart to see you like thisssss.

So I was being the nanny-cum-mommy of my baby bella since yesterday night. I'm supposed to feed her like a baby four times a day, literally spoon feed her and make sure she swallows and eats! So pampered like a princess, and she's a big-time attention seeker, whole night whining for me to carry her to my bed. Woke up really early this morning to feed her but towards noon I saw that she wasn't feeling too well so I decided to send her back to her real mommy. And the minute she sees her mommy, she's jumpy all over again. Gosh, to think i've worried the whole time she was by my side, naughty bella! But yeah, in the end I still decided to leave her under her mommy's care for a few more days. Because when I arrived at the farmway, there's another owner who sent her pup there, in time to save the little one. She was crying really badly because her pup didn't seem to be okay at all. It just collapsed. Luckily, the person managed to save it and the pup survived but it was still unconscious the whole afternoon. Scaryyyyyyy! If this was to happen to my baby (choy! touch many woods - table, chair, bed, shelves, everything made of wood!), I'm sure I'll go mad! I believe jingle precious will too, because she really dotes on her little sister, i'm so proud of her.

And baby boy k, I miss you, when IS your homecoming?