Ever tried throwing something small, say a ring, earring or necklace, into a big patch of green grass and you managed to find it after that? Like it felt like a miracle kind of thing, ever had that before? I had.

With just the thought of finding that little something, in my heart I told God that if I ever find it, it only goes to show it's fated to be with that somebody, that it's only meant to be. How real was it? I didn't even want to think of it. It's the fact that I found that little something in that patch of dirty, colourless (ok, so because there's only green and no other colours) grassland. It could've been impoosible to find it, but luckily that little something had some crystals on it and it just bling-ed to me! Gosh, what exactly am I supposed to do?

I feel as though life is playing a big joke on me, seriously. Testing my patience? Yes. Testing my perserverance? Yes. Testing my love? More like it. Crap.

He's just not that into you. I have to watch it because I heard the tips are pretty helpful, maybe after watching it, I'll see everything much much clearer and I won't have to suffer from depression anymore. Hate those sleepless nights, hate those toss and turning trying to get to sleep nights. Hate hate hate everything!

Hate you the most tonight.