Miss you? miss you not? miss you. miss you not? miss you.
Absence makes the heart grows fonder, yeah very true.

I couldn't sleep again yesterday night and I was up early this morning to send my parents off at the airport, and came home to an empty house again. Every time they go outta town, the house becomes empty, but every time they are around, it's sooooo noisy (ok maybe just my mommy). No matter how many people I may have around me now, I just feel so empty inside. What's wrong gracie? I feel so silly, and maybe foolish too.

I think everyone ought to prepare themselves for the worse scenario and I'm right now, preparing myself for mine. I totally suck at heartbreaks because I can't seem to make myself feel any better, I only end up doing more things to make myself feel bad. I'm prepared, i'm prepared, i'm prepared, i'm just preparing still. And I know my prayers may not be answered, once again. It happens all the time, I think God wants to train me to become a stronger girl to survive through the adulthood I'm gonna be facing in like seven months? I'm turning twenty-one, I was all excited before but now, I totally dread that birthday coming. I think I wanna spend it with someone I love. And I think that someone might be you.

Just, why can't I sleep at night?